November 2011
28 posts
nykitafajita:
“They Don’t Know” - Just a Fluke
All of you who are coming along side me, I’m asking too much of you but please stay and walk with me through hell.
day 33
garden city police are trigger happy I think so death by cop could work…
I wonder if you smoked a certain amount of cigarettes in a small time period if that would kill you. I don’t think I could slit my wrists enough to bleed out, I think I would feel queasy and I hate that feeling. I’ve looked up a bunch of meds hut none kill painlessly I don’t think. Or kill all the...
Love and Smiles: I really don't have huge... →
twentymoredays:
Being a senior, this is how usual conversation goes for me.
Someone: So, where are you planning on going to college?
Me: Ohh probably U of I or BSU. I’m leaning more towards U of I though.
Someone: Ohhh BOOO Vandals. Why U of I?
Me: Because it’s in-state, so it’s cheaper. But it’s not in town,…
day 33
one of the hardest things is being talented with something you’re not passionate about or being passionate for something you have no talent for doing.
Anonymous asked: Of all the things in my life I have questioned, there is one thing I am certain of. Fate. I believe with every inch of my being that there is a reason for everything. There is a reason why we were all brought to this exact moment we are in. Whatever it is that brought you here - may it be God, intuition, fate, whatever - it needed you to know that you are amazing. You are everything a person...
day 21
This morning found me reminiscing about a girl I had hoped to bury.
Her name was Margaret. I saw her that first day of summer school. I was nervous but found and old friend there in class. Shayla was looking undeniably great but I couldn’t help but notice the beautiful girl sitting in the corner. I kept myself from staring because I didn’t want to be THAT guy. Because, I reminded...
Anonymous asked: You are wonderful!
day 15
going off my meds hasn’t caused any issues yet. The bad part of today is that I found out that my life pretty legitimately sucks right now. I was doing a bit more research on medical waivers and such for if I joined the Army. Of all the dreams I’ve ever had in life, that one has always been a constant. To wear the uniform and serve my country and fellow man. As it turns out, anyone...
day 14
i wonder if i could try going off my meds…hmmm… BAD IDEA TIME! WOO! lets do this shit!
day 13
i think as a method of suicide, i should drink about 900 oz. of coffee and die from caffiene overdose…its probably bad i resent the person who made me throw away my razor. ill find another one of course but that takes time and i really kinda just want relief now… i had a dream a few nights ago that Nykita was murdered and i was avengenging myself on him in very violent manners. i...
Person: I'm depressed.
Society: You're just being dramatic.
Person: I self harm.
Society: You're just trying to get attention.
Person commits suicide.
Society: We never saw the signs!
still waters: Sinking →
silencedsparrow:
I don’t understand it, and I don’t want to explain it. I have no desire to justify it, or the power to change it. My heart yearns in the deepest agony. My soul weeps and mourns- all this crying is leaving me empty. All that my life used to be is slowly fading away. I have heard that change is a…
Affiliated with the dreamer: I Count The Colors →
breakfree-justlove-brooke:
That night just over a month ago I paced the cold tile floor and counted the colors in the room. There were precisely two shades of green, six shades of brown, one shade of white, and one shade of black. The room was surprisingly large and I was locked in there alone with nothing but a bed,…
Anonymous asked: You are truly and inspiration-i look up to you! xx
Crazed
I swear I’m O.K. I’m just a little on edge is all. I’ll be fine, don’t worry about it. I’ve just had a bad day, its not like my back is against a wall i don’t feel bad not a bit but really that clock is driving me mad and i can’t stop the shaking in my leg. next the racing thoughts somethings not right this has all gone bad i want you to stay please...
still waters: Crackling Fireside →
silencedsparrow:
Slowly, steadily the snow flakes fall. Early November, but it’s cold like December. The tiny flakes sting my cheeks- my nose turns pink and my fingers numb. My eyes reflect the starry night as the clear, crisp air ruffles my hair, the sky is bright with the heaviness of and un-laid burden of snow…
