March 2011
30 posts
day 59
the days seem to be getting harder if anything. i am directionless. i have no goals, i’m digging myself into a very deep hole with my grades, and the sense of hopelessness that has been an ever present shadow is starting to weigh down upon me once again. but tomorrow, i’m still going to wake up and smile like its just another happy day in the life of The Joe. that’s part of what...
February 2011
41 posts
philippians2-15b asked: who am i??
day 51
i havent posted in a few days but ive come close if that counts. past couple days have been brutal. i hate being irritable when i know i dont have a good reason. actually i hate being irritable for any reason. i dunno the past like two or three days i just keep having those thoughts like “if i cut id feel better” or stuff like that. hiding it from everyone has been pretty hard too. i...
day 46
so i have recently started liking this girl from school. its pretty cool because i really want to have a godly relationship with a girl for once and then she pops up into my life. but as these kind of relationships go, i get confused pretty quick about what to do. that’s probably mostly due to the fact that i don’t understand girls at all. but what i found particularly hard was how i...
abillionlittlestars asked: yeah, you've got a point, i guess... don't post for no reason... i just enjoy your posts :D haha and OF COURSE you would reblog tic tacs XD
day 41
not only can i be proud that its day 41, which is awesome, but i am also noticing that i am becoming more and more mature. which makes me quite happy. although good news usually has bad news right behind it. i was hanging out with a group of guys who were talking about…well the usual of what guys are expected to talk about i guess. it was getting pretty raunchy and i was kind of happy that i...
abillionlittlestars asked: hey joseph, i have a good idea. HOW ABOUT YOU ACTUALLY POST MORE OFTEN. yeah, that's a good idea :) haha
day 39
one of those days where i just wish i hadn’t been the person i have been before. despite all the lessons that time taught me, the judgement and rightful condemnation of my conscience is still hard to take. and there is always the fear of rejection that is magnified with the amount of skeletons in my closet. that fear is a tough thing to get over. but it is just more proof of how i should...
day 36
it is really a sobering thought when you realize how many people you interact with in a given day that need someone like you to just give a simple word of encouragement. i was just in a room of at least 40 people this night and i realized that all of them have their own secret fears, heartbreaks, and struggles. i went alone tonight and ended up not talking to anyone the whole time i was there. i...
day 35
so in James 1:2 and 3 it talks about being joyful even through pain because it develops maturity. these verses really jumped out to me in that i wouldnt be who i am without the struggles i have gone through. God wouldnt be able to use me or my testimony as much without the pain i have experienced. My story of how much i had been apart from God and of how selfish i was just shows how far God is...
“Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the...”
– James 1:12 (via lovekelseymarie)
thewonderstrucklove asked: Thank you (:
I'll be praying for you too. I think it's funny that my sister and I have basically posted the same stuff to you without even realizing it, haha. If you couldn't tell my sister Becca (B) and I are kind of alike ;)
Anyways, I love your blog in case you didn't know(:
Oh, and this is an amazing Bible verse that I just found.. I thought...
I'll be praying for you too. I think it's funny that my sister and I have basically posted the same stuff to you without even realizing it, haha. If you couldn't tell my sister Becca (B) and I are kind of alike ;)
Anyways, I love your blog in case you didn't know(:
Oh, and this is an amazing Bible verse that I just found.. I thought...
pressingon asked: Heyyy dude howww did you comment on my picture?? I want to be as awesome as you are at Tumbling!
You are not alone.
pressingon:
What I am slowly realizing, is that Satan wants us to feel isolated. He wants us to think that we are alone, and that weakens us. The important lesson I have learned from Tumbler, is that we are in fact NOT alone. Not now, not ever. There are always people going through similar hardships, sometimes even the same hardship. And even you were the only person on the planet, you are still...
pressingon asked: Hey just wanted to tell you that I am on these meds for my anxiety disorder and depression. Every time I don't take them it makes me go KA-RAZY and I get slammed into a deeper depression than before. Like.. If I don't take them for even most of a day I'm depressed and snapping at people and just have this weird need to get in a horrible fight with someone. It's super scary. So...
thewonderstrucklove asked: I take antidepressant and ADD medicines, it can be so scary sometimes because I always worry abot becoming dependant on them too.. You're not alone :/
Anonymous asked: I just want to let you know that I find your story incredibly inspiring - you've overcome so much and you've become such a strong person.
God is good :)
I'll be praying for you. Stay strong!
Live long and prosper ;) haha
God is good :)
I'll be praying for you. Stay strong!
Live long and prosper ;) haha
Anonymous asked: -This isn't really so much as a question more like a statement, that God can handle whatever struggle you face =)
I have anti-anxiety medication that I took for months on end to get rid of my tired anxious mindset. I've gone three weeks without it, and it's crazy what God can do in that short period of time.
I'm sure he can work the same in your life, but just...
I have anti-anxiety medication that I took for months on end to get rid of my tired anxious mindset. I've gone three weeks without it, and it's crazy what God can do in that short period of time.
I'm sure he can work the same in your life, but just...
day 34
i really hope im not becoming dependent on my meds….i forgot to take them last night and ive been antsy and on edge all day. its kinda sucked. i dunno sometimes i think that these things happen (forgetting to take pills, not having something we depend on for just one day) just for God to show us we need Him more than anything else. just my thoughts on it. because this has for sure been a day...
pressingon asked: Hey thanks for following me :) I used to cut as well funny enough, it gets easier to resist as time goes on. I don't even want to anymore. :)
-B :)
-B :)
abillionlittlestars asked: i just finished reading your OP... good stuff, man :)
Anonymous asked: Thanks for the follow(:
I’m a recovering cutting addict too, it’s nice to find someone that I can relate to. We can make it through this(:
I’m a recovering cutting addict too, it’s nice to find someone that I can relate to. We can make it through this(:
coming up on day 33
i just reread my paper where i told about everything leading up to day zero. and i realized that i really underplayed how much of a role music had all through that time. listening to music was how i expressed myself. when i was upset, i would listen to as i lay dying or stuff like that. when i was happy it was relient k or i hate kate. when i would cut i would try to find songs that expressed all...
abillionlittlestars asked: hahaha IT'S GREEN NOW!!! and yayyyy, you have an ask!!! :) haha
tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?
To Write Love On Her Arms: the website that really... →
this is a paper i wrote for english last night, it...
Joe Greenlee
January 31, 2011
American Literature
Period 4
Day Thirty-two
February 1, 2011 is day thirty-two. Thirty-two days since I last cut. Thirty-two days since I felt the weight of the world coming down upon my shoulders. Thirty-two days since I began having hope. Thirty-two days into the second part of my story. Thirty-two days since I was living a life that was empty, cold, and...
